Happily Never After

It was a long drive back to the city when I heard this song. Everyone in the car was spent, was alone inside their heads and didn’t want to be bothered, me included.

I’ve wondered for quite sometime now if there is anyone else in the world who feels the same way I do. And then she sang it succinctly … No happyily ever after, that just ain’t for me. Hah! Whodathunk? So maybe my story is not unheard of after all. I’m not going to dive deeper as to how this poignant thought came about but  suffice it to say, I have no penchant for the dramatics. It has a penchant for me.

Although the rest of the song spoke of something I myself have never gotten myself into – I never allow abuse and I teach people how to treat me -yet, it hit a chord close to  home. I’ve seen someone close go through this and I know the pain. I’ve asked the Heaven’s many a times that He not put me in such situation … I’ll probably just croak. I’m not that brave and enduring.

I wonder how many women hold on for all the wrong reason. And how many twisted lives are out there bourne to abuse.

I don’t think I want this anymore
As she drops the ring to the floor
She says to herself: ‘You’ve left before’
This time you will stay gone, that’s for sure

And he shouted something else
she drag her suitcase down the path,
To the driveway.
She had never gone that far.

Normally this would be the time
That she would let him talk her out of leaving,
But this time, without crying,
As she got into her car, she said,

No happily never after,
That just ain’t for me, because finally
I know I deserve better after all,
I’ll never let another teardrop fall.

As she drove away she starts to smile,
Realized she hadn’t for a while.
No destination, she drove for miles
Wondering why she stayed in such denial.

She was laughing about the way he shouted something else
To drag her suitcase down the path,
To the driveway.
She had never gone that far

Normally this would be, the time that she
Would let him talk her out of leaving,
But this time, without crying,
As she got into her car, she said,

No happily never after,
That just ain’t for me, because finally
I know I deserve better after all,
I’ll never let another tear drop fall.

I’m done, I’m done, said I’m so done
I’m free, I’m free, so free
Free to feel the way I feel, yeah.

She inhales a breath she’d never breathed before
The air of no drama no more.

No happily never after,
That just ain’t for me,
I know I deserve better after all,
I’ll never let another teardrop fall.